Friday, November 21, 2008

It Flurried This Morning :)

We got our first little snowflakes this morning, unfortunately they stopped before we went out to wait for the school bus. It occurred to me as I bundled Phoebe up, that I ought to also bundle myself up. I typically wear a heavy coat, but don't bother w/hats and gloves and such. But it's so WINDY and COLD at work near the waterfront, I am determined to properly outfit myself for this winter. Even if it's just walks to/from the car, there's no need to freeze my buns off! I love, love, love my beautiful black wool swing coat (especially since I had a friend re-line it in BRIGHT pink!), but it's too wide-open to be warm - gotta get me a parka of sorts, and a hat that won't squish my hairdo, and some grippy gloves.

Friday, November 14, 2008

No Facebook Friday

I spent my entire work day yesterday on facebook, literally. What an addiction! So today is no facebook Friday. I have stuff to do for Perot today, it's the last day for benefits open enrollment, and I still need to complete my annual ethics training and certification. Plus I have real Navy work to complete, a future state map for a recent process improvement event. So, this post is supposed to be my last non-work activity for the day. And no facebook!

Blog = Journal

My blog never got much traffic anyway, so I've gone ahead and limited the readership to just my parents and sister, that way I can say what I really want and need to say - including venting about JR - without disrespecting him on the world wide web. I didn't intend to require M&J&NB to have Google accounts to read, we'll see if they mind.

So, LMC is really sleeping through most of the night it seems. JR came stumbling into his room where I was sleeping at 0540 w/the baby and the boppy. LMC probably had to fuss longer to get JR's attention than he does mine, so he was wider awake than usual for his early a.m. boobs and it was hard to put him back to sleep, but he did doze back off around 0620. Then of course Phoebe woke up all chipper and chatty at 0640.

I Haz Resentment

I am not in a good mood. It's half past midnight, I went to bed at 9pm in a pissy mood w/JR, and now he's come to bed hours later and woken me up with his snoring, and I'm upset about it. He knows I can't sleep through his snoring, and he knows damn well that I haven't had a good night's sleep in over a year. Sadly, we sleep in separate beds. Yes, we recognize that this is somewhat unnatural and unhealthy, but it is what it is. It's been this way since we had Phoebe. It's not like I can just will myself to sleep through his log sawing. So we have separate beds/bedrooms.

So I stayed up way late one night recently and he stole my spot! When I finally did go to bed that night for my couple hours of rest, he didn't happen to snore, and I happened to be able to sleep. He took this as his "welcome" to return to sleeping w/me, which is a nice thought, but we have already proved twenty different times it doesn't work for me! Yes, in my heart, he is of course welcome in bed w/me! I love him dearly, and I really miss the cuddling and hanky panky, but I think I'm going to absolutely lose my fucking mind if I don't get a good night's sleep, several nights, several consecutive nights.

My only consolation is that the baby is probably going to wake him up soon. I actually think he wakes the baby w/his snoring, but maybe not, Phoebe sure sleeps right through it.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

It's My Party & I'll Cry If I Want To...

Ok, I got distracted from my blog in favor of facebook for a while, but now that I have 100+ facebook friends, I find myself not wanting to share EVERYTHING with EVERYONE, so I am reclaiming my blog for myself! I think it's only my parents and sister who ever go here, maybe a random internet surfer. I've had a blog post brewing in my head for a while that I know I don't want to share w/the world called "I'm Tired!" and will be glad to get it out of my head and into words. Soon, maybe.